sigh…. So there’s been a lot going on. So much to share! So busy, yet so important! I’ll try to share some thoughts, but please be patient.

One thing I’ve been thinking about is significance and success. And happiness. How is it all related? How is it defined? Does the outcome really justify the means? Because I am happy or things turned out somewhat like I’d hoped or it wasn’t as painful as I’d feared, does that make it a success? A good thing? If things turned out differently, is it a failure? Or at least a disappointment? If I have fun once in a while, what does it matter? Who does it affect? I get emotionally attached to people quickly. That’s a negative sometimes. It makes me think of ‘chick flicks’ and maybe the reason they are so appealing to me and appalling to others. I like cheering for people to get together & make it work, and to have insight into their lives and ways of thinking, even if they are playing the role.

A rather major, recent thing was a job-change. On my last day at my old place, I left early for an interview. It’s downtown. It went well, and I was hopeful. Before I knew it, it was Wednesday of the following week, and I was at the new place. I was trained for one day, and since then have been trying to learn as much as I can and do what I’m supposed to. The people I work w/ are great- very diverse, but very dedicated to what they do.

This post has been a work in progress for several days, so it doesn’t fully capture all that has happened, nor do I want it to. Who has time to read pages of one entry?

So, in general, I feel like I know myself and what I want and my place in the world better as of late than in a long time. It began in Guatemala. I even dreamt last night that I was down there again, talking with Susie, and I was telling her I’m glad things have gone the route they have, because apparently I was free to join her w/ her work there. I don’t know what’s with this desire to be free lately, but I’ll try to go with it instead of letting my desire to belong take over.