I'm having a hard day.  Drama.  I guess a previous receptionist really rocked here, and then got hired for another position within the department.  I'm glad he was that great, but I'm not (yet).  Part of it is that I haven't gotten assigned much to do (or trained).  I've mastered some things, but others have been thrown on me with little explanation, and quick deadlines...  Didn't work out somuch, because my boss didn't have patience to go over it with me.  I understand the need to get things done on time, but one person can only do so much, and I want to help her out- not have to do everything...  I'm definitely not feeling as good about being here as I have before.
On the other hand, I'm getting good career advice- did I mention the business lunch last week?  But again, I don't know what to think of what's progressing there- I've been invited to a spa party by the guy (one of those things you host, like Avon or Pampered Chef) and it sounds fun, but I need to find out more, because I don't want it to be anything weird, like if he likes me.  He's probably 20 years older, and friendly- so I just want to be safe and smart.  I don't think that every guy likes me (some people have actually thought that).  I know I'm paranoid sometimes, but I'm just trying to know what I'm getting myself into.

Today we're actually moving into the new place- at least with our basic things.  The rest we'll fetch from storage over the next 2 weeks.  That's exciting!  and terrifying. Not really terrifying, but I feel terrified- why do I let stress and paranoia grip me so much sometimes?  I wanna cry.  I'm in the flight mode of 'fight or flight.'  I'm thinking of a temp job that I've really liked (even though it can't be full-time) and how this current job is good, but is going nowhere (except maybe in the networking department).

Who knows what will happen?  I don't want to focus on my fears or sadness, so I'll read the Bible and world news.  That should give me some perspective.  I'll try to hold my tears in check 'til lunch (not working so well).