I've managed to eat a chocolate bar during work.  Nothing too out of the ordinary, but I try to limit my sugar-intake somewhat.  Like at work, I try to eat maybe one big candy bar over the work-week.  Oh, well.  Maybe I needed it, and there were nuts in it...

I wonder what the relationship between what I want and what's best for me is.  What I'm thinking about in particular is a specific type of guy.  I'll call him "Totally Awesome Dude," or TAD for short.  TAD being a mixture of some of my favorite guys in the world.  Now, there are great people and men that don't fit into this category, and they are special and important to me and all that, but they don't have the draw that TAD does.  I won't go into detail about what TAD is like, but I wonder if I enjoy being around TAD, he is an amazing guy, etc.... what does it take to work?  What 'type' of person will I marry (Lord-willingly)?  I personally think that everyone likes TAD- he's the kind of guy that is personable, great and smiling and laughing- a people-person.  Energetic, uplifting--- you get my point.  But what does all that matter?  Does it means that there can or has to be anything more?  Can't there be people like that that just make life more enjoyable/better- w/o having to make more of it, as in a relationship?  I'm asking this because i wonder why it all matters, or if it even does.  I wonder why some people are so much more appealing than others- in wanting to be around/like them, not in "man, he's hot."  I wonder if others see it, too- and if that appeal would wear off if I was married to Tad.  Maybe my life is better or I'm closer to God or have a better perspective of things by knowing TAD, and having a deeper relationship would only mess that up.  I don't know.  I don't know what's good for me- it's a good thing I don't have to figure everything out on my own.