there's a lot that I'm going through right now that I probably won't share here, but life is pretty good.  had a nice weekend that included driving (just really wanted to- went to a town about 1 1/2 away).  one of the main things bothering me has to do with money- I send my checks to the bank back home (maybe I really should open an account here, but I like my other bank), and the last batch hasn't been deposited, and there are things I need to pay for soon, so I'm wondering if it's just taking longer than usual, or if I'll need to get them reissued or whatnot and then I figured out my budget was off, and I'm not doing as well as I'd thought- so whatever.  it'll be fine, and work out and all that- but in the meantime, it sucks and bothers me.

and i'm in the mood of wondering if it'd be better if i just left everyone alone (i don't know if that's possible)- like that I'm being ridiculous, and wasting peoples times and such- I can't pinpoint where that's coming from, and it's quite possible that if i just keep on pushing on, something wonderful will come out of it and it'll be worth it all, but in the meantime...