it's one of those days when it's very hard to stay at work.  with a good portion of the office gone, and it being Friday, and with fun plans in the works, I nearly have to bolt myself down.  if I can manage to get out early and accompish another goal (making it to the temp office before they mail my check- delaying me paying the bills) I would be thrilled.  as it is, there's only so far a lead foot can go when traffic's at a standstill.  I'm hoping maybe the rest of the world is on vacation by that point, going in the opposite direction- and that it'll work out.  and I'm not the only one who wants to leave.

sometimes, i just need to keep my mouth shut.  I'm really fond of the IT guys here, and might even call them acquaintances.  So, this very attractive security/police officer comes in and asks me about the suite across the hall, and I just have to tell someone about him (goes back to how women deal) but feel trapped at the desk (I really shouldn't be away from it often) so an IT guy walks by and I tell him.  Of course, he's like 'What?  Are you aware of who you're talking with?'  and I proceeded to say something really intelligent basically calling him a girl... so very smooth, Erin.  but in the explanation, I was intentional in what I said, because I'd rather have him see me as seeing him as no attraction at all then to think that there's a possibility of any interest there.  but guys are sensitive, so I just have to shut my mouth sometimes.  and I don't know what it is with me and guys lately- maybe there's something in the air- I don't normally think about them being attractive or as fascinating as I have lately.  You can beg to differ- there just seems to be a difference to me.  It could just be my attitude/perception today.  I'm the most casual I've ever come to work (t-shirt, flip-flops) and that's carried over into my attitude (maybe vice-versa).  I also think my frame of reference (some may call it a box) keeps getting broken and glued back together again.  that probably plays a big part in my view of guys (and the world at large).

I think the body cream from Bath & Body Works I'm using is drying out my skin.  Why else would my hands be so dry?  It's humid out.  It could be the soap, but shouldn't the cream balance that?  All I know is that I've never really used lotion until rather recently, and my hands don't normally get as dry as they are now.  Could be the alcohol in it.  Maybe it's like soda- you think since it's a beverage, that it'll refresh you, and maybe it does, but it dehydrates you more than you were in the first place.  Also, I've experimented with their Wallflowers (plug-in fragrance).  I've done so in my bedroom, to see what they really smell like and how long they linger after being pulled, etc.- it's a better testing ground than the huge living/cooking area.  So, every time I sleeping while using the Wallflowers, I wake up congested- maybe even dried out, too.  (maybe that's what's drying me out?!)  This may or may not sound ridiculous to you, but it's true.  When I don't use the Wallflowers, I wake up fine.  With that said, I wonder what the chemicals we use every day in household cleaners and such do to us?  It makes me want to go the more natural way.  I'm even debating returning the 'flowers.  But they do smell good.  isn't there more to this life than induldging my senses?

I may get two roommates in August instead of one, and that would make life so much better!  or should I call them housemates?  Whenever I hear 'room' I think they share the same bedroom, but does that have to be the case?

girls' night was fun last night.  There ended up being just three of us, and that was just perfect.  we hung out and shared a little of our backgrounds and where we're currently at, and I really like the women and am looking forward to spending more time together.  It's really refreshing to not have walls up and be vulnerable and such.  so powerful.