I didn't click it!!  My blog counter/parent registers where I click supposedly- like checking out friends' pages, etc.- but sometimes it says a site that I haven't checked out.  That may not sound like a big deal, but I'm sensitive to people having an 'accurate' perception of me.  What's accurate?  can't really tell you- it's not every person seeing me the same way.  I can tell you that much.  It's more things that can be proven/disproven, like "where were you on the night..?"  (props to Clue)  now that I've gotten that off my chest:

I like making arrows grow.  or scroll bars, more accurately.  or is it shrink?  I enjoy erasing previous e-mails or content, and seeing that scroll bar slowly consume the right hand of my screen.  It is like I'm getting much closer to the content. can't say why I get such a thrill!

I don't like not finishing things.  sometimes.  For example, I've been sent to fetch files while my boss is on vacation (feels like an invasion of privacy).  Today, I could not find one.  I went through them all 3 times.  They were to be found in various drawers and organizers with little or no consistency.  I've helped her start to put them in order, but they're far from there.  so, having not found the file and knowing it's supposedly there somewhere is driving me up a wall.  Other times, when there is no clear deadline for something to be done by, I don't mind the mess or lack of finality.  Sometimes life has to be torn apart before getting pieced back together.

We're meeting with the landlords tonight.  There are 3 of us- perhaps four.  Since Amber's back, we've talked about getting another place.  but honestly, I like the area, and if rent doesn't hike up with the added people, we're getting a better deal than most studio or 1-bedroom apartments (much better than 3 or 4-bedrooms).  as far as sanity and personal space?  Not sure about that one.  After decorating the place and moving more things in, I'm not up for packing and moving.  It seems like I've carried things in and out of cars far too much this year.  I did say that the other two girls can move in- that I'm cool with that, but now I'm not so sure.  with moving out, we'd have to sign a 1-year lease, most likely- and with not knowing how we'd all get along... but a pool sounds sooooo wonderful- and if we only paid a small fortune on rent, I could afford to go to a public pool!  ah, life---