some things are difficult to grasp and/or deal with.  I've had my share lately (maybe more than- but i think it balances the easy times in life).

 I'm tempted to say that problems have arisen out of being honest.  It's not that simple.  (haha- I'm thinking of "You can't handle the truth!" exclaimed in some commercial or movie...)  Anyway, this past week or so has been especially tough.  Misunderstandings and non-communications can go sour fast.  I'm so glad I'm not in a relationship right now.  Or at least not a dating one.  it's so tiring to figure people out or get what they are saying.  Especially when we think we know each other but wording messes it up.  "That's (not) what I was saying!"  The sad part (in my opinion) is that all this drama has been between people at church.  I'm sure I could have done something to clarify things (or rectify or prevent them?) but what I can do now is continue on- and talk about things this weekend, I hope.  Last week, at my job, co-workers seemed to come out of the woodwork to set-up/entertain & clean up an open house.  I'm not saying that I didn't prod w/ e-mails and in-person conversations, but when it cam down to it, people who hadn't even shown interest were right there (willingly).  What's going on?  What's wrong with this picture?  Things are improving.  I spoke w/ said person for a long time this weekend.  There may have been some progress or understanding.  Others have been encouraging and willing to help out as needed.  this is all old news to me...

speaking of frames of mind: I've secretly hoped to be married before having to renew my driver's license (summer '09).  I don't think I've done anything to hurry that along.  nonetheless, I'm letting go.  I no longer live in that state, and am switching over my license to my current one w/in a month.  I am glad for some of the freedom that being single entails.  There's enough stress & things to do w/o that added on.  (ideally, it will be worth it when it happens)