why do I feel the need to edit my life?  Or at least my feelings?  I want to scream, "Screw you, ______!"  Is it really necessary?  or useful?  It may help me process some things, but what good will it do?  It's really easy to pick up on and echo others' moods and attitudes- and that is one that I want to stop in its tracks.

Maybe birthdays and New Year's are more alike than I thought.  At least it seems that way this year.  Between very thoughtful well-wishes and honest questions about my hopes and dreams for the year, I half expected a countdown 'til midnight.  The celebrations started with my family a week or so ahead of time, continued at work the actual day-of and concluded last night with some good friends.

Now I'm going for some fresh air.  I'm still upset & don't want to be.  Then, I might pack- I'm dog/house-sitting next week.