We've been to so many places the last few days, and there are plenty of stories to tell, but I don't want this to be like a run-down, so I'll do something different.

I've learned and talked a lot about caring for and loving someone lately.  It's been so good to have Aaron here, and to talk things through face-to-face, hand-in-hand .. . . it can be so hard over the phone or e-mail or whatever.  I'm very grateful that we can communicate in so many ways, and I think we know each other better and listen better because of the distance.  I am looking forward to us living in the same area some day, though.  I've cried a lot today.  That's usually what I do when I'm scared.  I know deep down that things will turn out good, and it really seems like Aaron and I will stick together, but after getting kind of used to him being down the hall from me and doing everyday things w/ him, then dropping him off for Spain (London first) and going home alone- that really hurt.  A big part is that it's an important fall for both of us.  He'll be doing something he's never done anything like before, and maybe sparking a passion for something Spanish related (or not) while I'm trying to wrap up college, and mend friendships, dealing w/ 3 of my closest not being around (only 1 of 3 actually went to my school)- - - so I'll want to be happy and involved and the sort at school, all while preparing and applying for a 'real' job that can start soon after graduation, and may take me far away, and I've been really liking seeing my family and Aaron, so what would it be like to be in another country or place for a year or two, coming home maybe once?  It's my life, and I can be independent at times, often, actually- but helping others and letting them help me has seemed so important lately- does it always have to be w/ someone new?

In the midst of all these questions and concerns, I feel a peace from God, reassuring me, showing me I can trust Him.  He's not going to tell me a detailed plan of what's to come, but I can trust him w/ the next step.  It's like when I lose my balance and reach out, he helps me along.  Also, when I'm tired of hiking and want to sit- He gives me that glimpse into something awesome to keep me going.