I'm back at school safely now- I got in last night (Monday)- but it's hard to believe it was only yesterday that I was home. Seems like weeks already.  I feel closer to death and life now than I have been in a long time.  I've had two tests today (written/gradable on es, numerous ungradable ones) but nothing tops tonight.  One of my new friend's boyfriend's mom is on life support right now.  Earlier tonight, I was wondering where she was, thinking something like, "Does she think she's too good for us?" (there was a suite party tonight in a neighboring suite) only to find out that she was dealing with this important heart-wrenching thing.  It was good to see the group of us girls get  together and pray about it as soon as we knew what was going on, but it sure put things in perspective for me- petty ideas of mine- and I've gone from deep sorrow and helplessness to slight anger and confidence.  I know there's nothing I can do, but I'm depending on God for it, trusting that he will- in everyone who is related in one way or another to this woman.  God is my strength, and I feel so good right now- or peaceful.

Beautiful One by Jeremy Camp

Wonderful, so wonderful Is your unfailing love Your cross has spoken mercy over me No eye has seen no ear has heard No heart could fully know How glorious, how beautiful you are. Beautiful one I love you Beautiful one I adore Beautiful one my soul must sing. Powerful so powerful Your glory fills the skies Your mighty works displayed for all to see The beauty of your majesty Awakes my heart to see How marvelous how wonderful you are. Beautiful one I love you Beautiful one I adore Beautiful one my soul must sing. Beautiful one I love you Beautiful one I adore Beautiful one my soul must sing. You opened my eyes to your wonders anew You captured my heart with this love Because nothing on Earth is as beautiful as you You opened my eyes to your wonders anew You captured my heart with this love Because nothing on Earth is as beautiful as you are. Beautiful one I love you Beautiful one I adore Beautiful one my soul must sing. Beautiful one I love you Beautiful one I adore Beautiful one my soul must sing. And you opened my eyes to your wonders anew You captured my heart with this love Because nothing on earth is as beautiful as you are.