The number of members in Orange County's Freecycle hit 4,000 today.  Somehow that seems important.  I'm trying to get a clothing iron from there.

I've felt very down lately.  One day I can excuse w/ waking up on the wrong side of the bed (although I always get up on that side- my bed's against the wall)- but it's lingered over me all week.  I try to choose to have a positive attitude, but I too often get down.

I tried doing my taxes today- somehow I thought it'd be easier to go on-line than buy envelopes to send in (half-way through the process I realized that the forms came w/ envelopes) anyways- today's theme for companies seem to be to get money every way possible.  On one site, I qualified for doing the forms free because of my income and age, yet at the end, they were like "$10 federal, $25 state" when that's about what I'm getting back!  So obviously I didn't submit the application.  Also, I forgot I have to send a copy of my feds w/ state, so somehow I have to copy them. . . I'll definitely get them done this week- the sooner the better.

Maybe I just need to do more.  I have two days off this week- today (field trip) and tomorrow (teachers' inservice)- I want to work more- (I couldn't get ahold of my latest attempt at another job)- and I spend a good amount of time in small groups and hanging out w/ friends (including Aaron) and reading and playing the piano- but there's still a lot of free time w/ no major papers or tests around the corner.  Do you think that's it?  I want to destroy oranges- throw them on the sidewalks and at things 'til everything's sticky.  But messes are bad, and oranges are good, so I won't.